the closer i am to the person, the more i normally show my real self. and sometimes, (most of the time. like 95%) i just CANT feeel my annoying smile that everyone loves. and im closest to my family. and its with them that i normally (not even all the time) feel comfortable (yes, they make me feel awkward at times. LOTS of times.) ... when i cant feel that smile of mine, which is almost all the time, i tend to just loosen up that smile abit. especially around those whom im comfortable with. so with my parents or siblings, i dont want to smile so much. its tiring after a while... i dont even feel it why should i smile all the time? and apparentally, my parents are starting to take my non-smiling face as teen rebellion. coz they say "last time u love to smile alot! now you're pulling a long face all the time!" i guess they'll just never understand. nono, its not that they dont understand. they dont even LISTEN ! wth. it sucks. i'll just shutup. hope that one day they'll understand. they hear. they hear. they just dont listen. i desperately want to feel my smile again...

the closer i am to the person, the more i normally show my real self. and sometimes, (most of the time. like 95%) i just CANT feeel my annoying smile that everyone loves. and im closest to my family. and its with them that i normally (not even all the time) feel comfortable (yes, they make me feel awkward at times. LOTS of times.) ... when i cant feel that smile of mine, which is almost all the time, i tend to just loosen up that smile abit. especially around those whom im comfortable with. so with my parents or siblings, i dont want to smile so much. its tiring after a while... i dont even feel it why should i smile all the time? and apparentally, my parents are starting to take my non-smiling face as teen rebellion. coz they say "last time u love to smile alot! now you're pulling a long face all the time!" i guess they'll just never understand. nono, its not that they dont understand. they dont even LISTEN ! wth. it sucks. i'll just shutup. hope that one day they'll understand. they hear. they hear. they just dont listen. i desperately want to feel my smile again...