things havent really improved. cs every night now, san jie i need you...my homework isnt clearing up either. tension at home isnt exactly gone . mom's not telling me whats wrong. fine by me, its really her choice shes not telling me. i've had lots on my mind lately. lots that i feel like screaming out loud. i'm learning how to drive now (: that manages a smile abit... however i still dont understand why it disappears once i reach home. mom gave me a long talk. she talked about how i always needed my parents to understand me, but i'll never understand them. its NOT TRUE. she presumes everything. its not fair. everything is unfair... stupid insomnia kept me up all night. and when i wake up late, i get scolded by my father. i'm bingeing all day long and i cant help it ! i hate this. i hate everything ! this isnt fair ! i'm getting cs every night and every where i go i feel it coming on ! i hate it ! i hate it !

things havent really improved. cs every night now, san jie i need you...my homework isnt clearing up either. tension at home isnt exactly gone . mom's not telling me whats wrong. fine by me, its really her choice shes not telling me. i've had lots on my mind lately. lots that i feel like screaming out loud. i'm learning how to drive now (: that manages a smile abit... however i still dont understand why it disappears once i reach home. mom gave me a long talk. she talked about how i always needed my parents to understand me, but i'll never understand them. its NOT TRUE. she presumes everything. its not fair. everything is unfair... stupid insomnia kept me up all night. and when i wake up late, i get scolded by my father. i'm bingeing all day long and i cant help it ! i hate this. i hate everything ! this isnt fair ! i'm getting cs every night and every where i go i feel it coming on ! i hate it ! i hate it !