You say you really know me
But exactly how much of me do you really understand?
what a fake.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011 / 11:41 PM
take time to realize....
Janette sat on her chair, her table piled high with her books. Her text books. Just the first month of school, and she was already failing tests? Her hand clutched in a fist, knuckles turning ghostly white, her face grim and firm. A deep sigh losened her up a little as she took out her Post-Its and wrote down one by one the things she needed to do. Soon the wall infront of her was filled. The silence of the room pounded in her ear as she read through again what she needed to do. At the verge of insanity, she had to do something to keep her within the reach of sanity.
At school, Janette had no choice but to keep her cool. She held her failed test in her hands with her head high, comforting Amanda who had also failed. Amanda was at a critical point now, Janette could not let her down, Janette had to anchor her down. How could she let a friend down at the point Amanda needed her? No, Janette had to swallow down her own bitterness and help swallow Amanda's too. Amanda had gone depressed about her scores.
"Jane... I don't know things anymore!"
"It's all going to be fine. Hey, look forward into the future! The grey skies might just clear up?" Janette lied through her teeth. What a liar and hypocrite she felt she was.
Right after school, Janette felt so exhausted that she just fell flat on her bed and slept. Her tiredness got the better of her as her mother woke her up for her music lesson. Anger raged through her as her sleep was disturbed. She ignored every single word her mother had said. This wasn't going to be the first time she had missed her music lesson. Her brain was so clouded with exhaustion she had no idea what she had to do. All she craved for was sleep. Insomnia had ravaged her energy throughout the week. Finally waking up, Kayla appeared.
"Liar, hypocrite, lazy, rude, geeze, Jane, what else are you? Pathetic little crying girl?" She mocked.
"Kayla, I told you you weren't welcomed here! Now get out!"
"Try me." And Kayla just sat on the table playing with her nails.
"You think you know me? You think you know who I am? What I'm going through?!" Janette hissed.
"You think you're the only one who has problems! You're the selfish one! And yeah, I DO know you. I know you better than you know yourself! I know you enough to say that you're a fake! You're nothing but a pathetic little cry baby!"Kayla came in closer with her breath on Jane's face. Jane started to sweat, her heart palpitating, her stomach twisted in a knot, her fists clenched.
"Go Away!" Janette screamed. No one was in the house to hear her scream. By the time she looked up, Kayla was already gone...
With her head still filled with exhaustion, Janette sat up to do her work. Her homework piling up. She sat and started on it. It didn't take her long to hit a wall. Her heart pounded in her ears and her face filled with blood as she stared at the problem. Nothing she read or wrote made sense to her. She couldn't even concentrate anymore. Tears flowed down from her face as she started to breath rapidly. She turned away and faced the window. The night lights of the city were far on the horizon, her breath fogged up the glass as she saw her reflection, with a single tear drop falling down.
Nothing she did would help her feel better. Her work was so overwhelming she can't even read anymore. Honestly, what will be of her in the future?
You say you really know me
But exactly how much of me do you really understand?
what a fake.
Wednesday, August 31, 2011 / 11:41 PM
take time to realize....
Janette sat on her chair, her table piled high with her books. Her text books. Just the first month of school, and she was already failing tests? Her hand clutched in a fist, knuckles turning ghostly white, her face grim and firm. A deep sigh losened her up a little as she took out her Post-Its and wrote down one by one the things she needed to do. Soon the wall infront of her was filled. The silence of the room pounded in her ear as she read through again what she needed to do. At the verge of insanity, she had to do something to keep her within the reach of sanity.
At school, Janette had no choice but to keep her cool. She held her failed test in her hands with her head high, comforting Amanda who had also failed. Amanda was at a critical point now, Janette could not let her down, Janette had to anchor her down. How could she let a friend down at the point Amanda needed her? No, Janette had to swallow down her own bitterness and help swallow Amanda's too. Amanda had gone depressed about her scores.
"Jane... I don't know things anymore!"
"It's all going to be fine. Hey, look forward into the future! The grey skies might just clear up?" Janette lied through her teeth. What a liar and hypocrite she felt she was.
Right after school, Janette felt so exhausted that she just fell flat on her bed and slept. Her tiredness got the better of her as her mother woke her up for her music lesson. Anger raged through her as her sleep was disturbed. She ignored every single word her mother had said. This wasn't going to be the first time she had missed her music lesson. Her brain was so clouded with exhaustion she had no idea what she had to do. All she craved for was sleep. Insomnia had ravaged her energy throughout the week. Finally waking up, Kayla appeared.
"Liar, hypocrite, lazy, rude, geeze, Jane, what else are you? Pathetic little crying girl?" She mocked.
"Kayla, I told you you weren't welcomed here! Now get out!"
"Try me." And Kayla just sat on the table playing with her nails.
"You think you know me? You think you know who I am? What I'm going through?!" Janette hissed.
"You think you're the only one who has problems! You're the selfish one! And yeah, I DO know you. I know you better than you know yourself! I know you enough to say that you're a fake! You're nothing but a pathetic little cry baby!"Kayla came in closer with her breath on Jane's face. Jane started to sweat, her heart palpitating, her stomach twisted in a knot, her fists clenched.
"Go Away!" Janette screamed. No one was in the house to hear her scream. By the time she looked up, Kayla was already gone...
With her head still filled with exhaustion, Janette sat up to do her work. Her homework piling up. She sat and started on it. It didn't take her long to hit a wall. Her heart pounded in her ears and her face filled with blood as she stared at the problem. Nothing she read or wrote made sense to her. She couldn't even concentrate anymore. Tears flowed down from her face as she started to breath rapidly. She turned away and faced the window. The night lights of the city were far on the horizon, her breath fogged up the glass as she saw her reflection, with a single tear drop falling down.
Nothing she did would help her feel better. Her work was so overwhelming she can't even read anymore. Honestly, what will be of her in the future?
So tell me about the rumours
Are they only rumours, or are they only lies?
biography
if only things remained like it did...
Jackie
what happened? i thought you said i could trust you?
yes, just call me Jackie. i'd prefer that.
i'm just the average everyday girl trying to make it through life.
smile :) its good to always have a smile on that face :)
dont tell me i'm crying. coz i'm not.
if you have nothing to say, then just leave.
-That's me. Accept it, Love it, Hate it. i dont care.
Falling out of a perfect dream
have you felt as if your world crashed right on top of you?
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you count down ten to one because when on zero you can smile
Funny how easily you crushed the trust
When it took you years to just build it.
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down the beaten track, along the river with an empty bank
